I may be getting the hang of this working mom thing. Sort of. I realized today one reason I may be extra hard on myself is that I don't have anyone close to me that has gone through exactly my situation. I know plenty of moms that went back to work when their babies weren't really babies anymore, but otherwise they are all full-time mommies. I think sometimes I'm trying to be full-time teacher and mommy which is clearly impossible according to the laws of time and space.
I feel guilty for liking going to my job; I feel guilty for not being with Brynn every minute; I feel guilty for not doing everything I can as a teacher. Being a mom is full of guilt, huh? Any way you look at it.
Today I was asked a really good question: What does getting it all right look like?
I don't know.
That should tell me something.
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Lacy,
ReplyDeleteNo matter what the situation, you will always feel guilty as a mom. You want everything to be perfect, and that just will not happen until we're all up in heaven. I'm doing what you want to do, and I feel guilty everyday that I don't do more with David, that I can't keep the house clean, and that I'm grumpy with John when he gets home. You are doing great, and Brynn knows that you love her. I love you, too.